Ahh the Future

Hey Everyone!

So my day was another dull one. I had to work with Chris and already going to say that it was more of Chris's constant asking when we were leaving. But I'd say the only other thing that happened autistic wise was I was doing a minor amount of grocery shopping, just picking up some minor items, and I talked to the cashier mentioning that at a different variety store a jumbo sized container was cheaper than the small container. I think I should of just figured, why did I need to bring this up, but I guess it was one of those lovely occasions where you can't help but bring up something completely random and make an awkward situation. It might not be autism, but none the less, it was AWKWARD. :P

Another thing I need to say is regarding how some things I really hate about in the world. For example, I tried getting a job at this one store that has a specific area of focus, video games, and being that I'm a video game fanatic, you'd figure it'd be easy for me to get a job there. Instead I walk in to find this one girl from my high school is now working there, someone who last I checked has never been interested in video games. Plus when I walked in, she looked at me as though I was dirt on the bottom of her shoe and she treated me the same way too. It irritated me so much I can't even get it off my mind because it is so ridiculous.

Now, the title of my blog, the future. Frankly I've been doing some soul searching and I've come to realize that I really have no idea what the heck I want to do with my life. Well...I do, I want to be an actor more than anything. Even though it's been a while since I did dance, but I still know how to dance, I can sing (I didn't do poorly on my vocal classes, I actually did smashing, so I must have some voice), and I know I can act because I don't take it to the point of perfection. However, as you also know, I'm in a Psychology program as a back up. But the fact is, I'm not happy. I only am ever happy when I'm acting, and while some directors may not always make it amazing, I still love it. I've been acting for years, and I just know that it's what is for me, but sadly it's also very difficult to get into...especially in Hollywood where I really want to go, to help entertain millions. To me it's about bringing joy to people who see movies, and it's what I'd love to get into... This is just me thinking about it and expressing my love of it...

Anyway that's all tonight,
Thanks for reading my friends,
Sean

SCAVENGER HUNT!

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Today was so much fun it wasn't even funny...wait that's maybe a bit of an oxymoron but whatever. Anyway to begin with, unfortunately my whole interview with Miss World Canada contestant Andrea Sarevec didn't happen because she never showed up...how unprofessional, especially when the competition is also for charity and she was suppose to be here promoting said charity. Anyway, I did however get to interview people from the Western Spur club which basically was a combo of philanthropy, sports, etc.

Once that was done I got some time back at home to study for my exam and then lost a $1.80 from the library because their damn printers were out of change! And what's more I lost $5.00 later in the day for what I'll explain in the next paragraph.

Around 5PM it was time for the (loosely affiliated) King's Players Scavenger Hunt. This consisted of things we had to do from proposing to someone in public, to doing the Macarena, to telling truths about ourselves, to rolling down UC Hill. Plain and simply, it was a blast. And for the first time in a long time, I won something, my team won the "competition". So I was thrilled. Following this lovely experience, we watched the videos of our journeys, and then the Making of Looking Glass Land (the play we put on in February). It was a great time and though we didn't finish till about 2:30, it was just a thrill. So I have to say I can't wait for the production next year!

Hope everyone had a great day! And no autism today, because I really just want to explain how much fun and not say what brought the day down possibly because nothing did. It was just an amazing time!

Night everyone!
Sean

Falling Asleep

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So I'm going to make this quick since I've been slowly falling asleep during the day. It was a relatively easy day, since I had no classes or anything like that. I headed up to Main however as I had to pick up a DVD of my Purple Shorts production and then do my self-evaluation of my final solo which wasn't SO bad. I then headed back to King's and got back home.

I didn't really do TOO much aside from study for my classes, finish my Ethics Proposal and that was basically it. Oh and I get to interview a girl who is in the top 10 of Miss World Canada tomorrow around noon which I think is great. It's my first interview with TV Western and I'm quite happy since TV Western is shutting down so I get one of the last interviews!

Autism-wise, I stayed up way too late. I just can't really think of anything else as my brains practically dead :P.

Night everyone!
Sean

How Can I Live Without You?

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So how was my Tuesday you might ask? Well it wasn't that bad. I had my usual classes and headed up to Talbot College close to music class. Since Emily, the class accompanist, had to cancel my practice on Monday, I had my practice just before class. Unfortunately when I got to class I found out that I unfortunate was going to go third last which of course sucked since it meant I had to wait forever to go. I sang "I Dreamed a Dream" from Les Miserables, and I thought it went quite well minus me missing a line simply because the verse and the one after it were so similar.

Following music class, I just headed home since I still had to study for my exams next week. That really is everything to say :)

Autism-wise, I think all that happened really was maybe lingering on some topics more than needed? I think that was it.

That's all folks!
Sean

Come What May

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So how is everyone doing today? Hopefully well as I'm doing not badly since my sinus infection isn't as bad as it was. I took a Tylenol Cold and Sinus, which is probably why I'm feeling a lot better than I had.

I had my usual Clinical course, then headed over to Talbot College and had pizza for dinner. I then headed to the music library since I had to get a silly self-evaluation form done. The good thing is when watching the video of my solo from last week, it turned out even better than I had originally thought of the solo. It was probably the best solo I had ever given in a long time :P.

Class then happened and the class wrote the music test while I went outside of the classroom and played Pokemon SoulSilver as I get to write the test next week. Thank God for that :P. Following the test I had practice with my Ensemble partner Jen and we were singing Come What May from Moulin Rouge. The bad thing is I absolutely suck when it comes to harmony because often I wind up singing the notes of whatever my partner is singing meaning I wind up singing in unison rather than in harmony. I'm sure I'll get it eventually, but at the moment I just simply suck at this.

Autism-wise, I think it was just a case of me getting on my own case about my singing. I apologized several times to my partner Jen when really I should have only had to do so once. But I suppose it's something I can't help, I don't want people upset at me so I apologize like fifty million times.

That's all for tonight!
Sean

I'm Freaking Out

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So I woke up today at 12:00PM and watched MadTV before heading over to King's to sign up for my Soph interview as I got into the next level of the Soph application process which made me quite happy. After I signed up for that I went to the library to print off my tickets for my friend Brittany and I to go see Alice in Wonderland as we're seeing it Friday since I work the First-Year Ball on Saturday so I can't go with Lauren and others that night.

After this I had class at 3:30PM and then headed home briefly before heading to my vocal coaching sessions at the Music Building. Then I spoke with my ensemble partner Jennifer to decide which song to do, which will most likely be Come What May from Moulin Rouge.

After this I headed to Fashion Show practice which went pretty well, and I ended by working on the posters for the Fashion Show. It's stressing me out so bad but luckily Pat (the KUCSC President) said he'd take the work I did, and then just finish it up. I just hope he does it the right way.

Autism-wise, I both have been letting the stress overwhelm me because I'm not letting myself breathe or any of the things I was told to do to help prevent my stress from getting overwhelming. There also was the usual following the structure of my blog as always. :P

Night all!
Sean

Question Authority

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So today was a relatively short day starting with heading up to the UWO bookstore to look for a tape that I needed for class which unfortunately they were sold out of, followed with a music lesson.

While later in the day we had a few speeches about Free Speech, Questioning Authority, Love as a Battlefield, that's not the actual title but it's about how people wind up building up ammo against one another in relationships. As well, we learned about Kettlebells which is apparently a fast acting weight loss exercise dumbbell it's just not a dumbbell with evenly distributed weight, it's all focused in the bell and the motion makes you raise your endurance and increase strength. I may look into it as it apparently really does have fast acting as long as you aren't drastically overweight which I'm not.

Anyway, probably only autism-related thing was I wouldn't let some topics go and had to keep adding on to comments I made to the speeches. Finally I just had to stop when they said it's time to move on to the next speech...oops.

Night all,
Sean

The Day You Slipped Away

Hey so how was my day you might ask? It's quite simple, lame as anything. Whether waking up from a phone call at 12PM to dealing with my friend's landlord, it was anything but not exciting.

Class happened at 5:30 and was quite boring because all we learned about was measurements for Psychology Research. Following this class I went home and chatted with my mother a bit and now watching television.

Autism-wise, I was also just worried I was stressing my friend Lauren out with some matters that I can't discuss on here, which was pretty silly.

However, there was one thing that happened tonight after I posted this. I found out that a friend both Lauren and I had...had passed away. We found out from his best friend and he was only 25...I only knew him for a short while. Sure lots of talking on MSN but Lauren and I only met him in person once, but he was one of those people who you can't help but call your friends even if you hang with them for one day. If any of my friends reading this are wondering why they haven't heard of him before it was because while he was a really good person, I have a lot of friends and acquaintances so it's sometimes difficult to talk about all of them and since he didn't go to Kings or Western like most of my friends, he went to Fanshawe, so I never really had to bring him up. However, I'm still pretty sad about this as this has been the first friend I've ever really lost permanently. Not someone who just drifted away because of going to different schools or just different interests, but one I'm never actually going to see again.

Sean

I Am Changing

So I'm going to try and change it up today. I am actually kinda tired of using the same thing over and over again. Yes I got up at 1PM like usual however I'm not going to give you a chronological detailed post about my whole day.

Learning about Clinical Psychology (my first class of the day) is definitely interesting, especially when our guest speaker arrived. We got to hear about what she does for a living, which included helping teens who are going through psychological issues including both suicide and even hearing voices in one's head. I found her an extremely interesting guest speaker and definitely wouldn't have passed that class up.

For Vocal Music class I got a chance to sing my solo, just 8 measures, and then listened to other people. Many people, including myself, need work, though some more than others but not trying to be rude. I've had ten years of professional singing training so hopefully that entitles me to critiquing without sounding like a jerk. I then found my partner, Jessica, for the ensemble piece we have to do from class. I suggested True Colours though we may do something from musical theatre which could just be as good. We even joked about doing a duet of Popular from the Broadway smash hit, Wicked. :P

As for autism today, it was a matter that I swear I thought I was bothering the girl I sat next to in music class as it seemed like I was annoying her. Hopefully not, but yeah that was the only thing :P

Have a great night everyone, and I hope you liked the format of this post.

Sean

Gimme a Break

Hey Everyone!

So I woke up today around 1PM and did my usual prepping for the day. At 4:10PM I headed up to main campus for a music lesson, and while I was early, I got the chance to practice with my accompanist.

Following this I headed back to Kings for my Speech class, starting with my classic rhetoric test. It was quite a short lasting test and I finished in twenty minutes because it was basically based on the sheet we had been given so it was mainly a memorizing sort of test.

During speech class, we finished the monologues with me finding out I got 90% on my monologue last week! We also then talked about our next speeches which were going to be persuasive speeches. We then told some speeches to get people emotionally invested, but they were so depressing that it just drained my energy from me...

I then went over to Lauren's for a bit and just chatted about some things. And then headed home where I am now.

Autism-wise I think the only thing that happened was I let the influence of television and internet keep my brain over-stimulated. Hence I got to bed at 5AM which is why I'm so tired right now.

But anyway,
Night all!
Sean

Scotty Doesn't Know, so Don't Tell Scotty!

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Short day today for the blog so everyone knows. I woke up at 1PM though I wound up sleeping actually till 2PM. I had my usual shower and then headed downstairs to watch television until close to 4PM.

I picked up Chris at 4PM and headed to Wendy's with Chris. We then went to Pinafore Park, then followed it by going to my house to watch FAME.

After work, I headed home to have dinner (Pot Roast with Mashed Potatoes), and played Avatar The Game. I have to say, for such a fantastic movie, they created quite a horrible game. You wind up dying in a battle with a soldier just because of the guns, its pretty pathetic you can die so easily in around five seconds. Now here I am, watching Eurotrip.

Autism-wise, the only thing that really happened was my disruption of sleep today. My brain stayed active till around 5am and as a result couldn't relax so that I could get to sleep. Obviously it was unfortunate because it just sucks not being able to get to sleep. The only good thing, was that I didn't have to get up until around 2. It sucks though because tomorrow I need to be up for 12PM (meaning 10AM wake up) as I'm taking Chris to see The Tooth Fairy.

Night all!
Sean

PS: Oh and unfortunately I still don't know yet if I got Students Council yet so I'm still waiting....

Striving for Greatness

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So I woke up at about 11:30AM as I had an interview for the King's Students Council to be their Speaker (the one who runs the meetings). I headed to King's at 1PM for my interview and I really think I did a great job. I made my points, I was conservative in my explanations, but I made a few jokes when needed. I don't know if I definitely will get it as I've tried before and didn't get in, for good reasons I'm sure, but I just can't stop. I never stop because of how much council means to me and how much each position I try out for means to me. Some people may question why I keep trying again, or say that I randomly choose positions to run for, but the fact is I only choose positions I want to be in. If I didn't care as much I would of run for something like Environmental Coordinator (not that I don't care for the environment, I just wouldn't really be in the position for the position itself). So here's hoping it works out.

After the interview I grabbed some lunch and headed home for a bit until my class at 3:30PM. It was a relatively boring class that even Lauren found dull and she generally pays attention but even she found it difficult so that's saying something....

After class my parents picked me up and we went to Red Lobster for dinner, but wound up only getting a small amount of food because they have upped their costs way too high. It's freaking ridiculous that the prices are THAT high.

My parents and I then headed home and I went out and rented Post Grad, which was just okay, The Invention of Lying (which if you look back a few months you'll know it's a funny movie), and Avatar: The Game. Now here I am, getting ready for bed.

Autism-wise, because my day was such a running around sort of day, my brain was over-stimulated and as a result I kind of wound up a bit more hyper than I should of. I just was talking what seemed like a mile a minute, but I guess what else can I say?

That's basically everything for today.
Night Everyone!
Sean

I'm Going In For the Kill, I'm Going In For the Thrill

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So I woke up at 1PM and talked to my Mom about a certain friend of mine who was not exactly being the cleanest of people. It was the same friend who's place I stayed at, and my friend expected me to clean up her dishes which was ridiculous. I did eventually clean her dishes, just because I could not bother with it anymore.

After this talk I headed to class at 3:30PM for Clinical Psychology. We learned about Clinical Diagnosis, and then I headed to the music library because I needed to figure out my second and third solos for my Foundations in Singing course. I knew I was doing House of the Rising Sun for my first course. My second solo I put down was Danny Boy but I can of course change it. As for the final solo, it can be a song from a film or musical theatre or anything similar to that. So I got music from Wicked, one that has many contemporary songs, and one with many Broadway pieces. Now I just need to pick one that's in my range.

At 7PM I headed to my vocal class and we just learned about how to prevent performance anxiety, effective practice methods, and breathing techniques. I found it really excellent because it would just really help me in my singing even more than where it is now.

After class I headed back to my friend's place and cleaned the dishes as I said, though it sure took forever but almost was a bit therapeutic in a way.

Once I finished that, now I'm going to bed.

Night all!
Sean

The Holiday

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So I woke up around 1PM and watched MadTV. I then headed to my shower and did the usual stuff. I then headed over to Student Services at Kings College to meet with my SSD counselor to book my quiz next Monday. Once that was done I then headed downstairs and got some food and then headed home.

Around 6PM I headed over to Lauren's so that we could head to Speech class. When at speech I sang Don't Stop Believing as my monologue and people loved it. They told me I had guts, my professor said I had perfect pitch and great intonation which I was glad to hear, and just was happy to hear a lot of people liked it. I think some of the cocky guys in the class who thought they were too good for school and for the class, seemed to have this look in their eyes like they were thinking "what a dork" but it's not like it matters. I love singing, and interestingly enough Lauren and a few people said that the whole social awkwardness of my Aspergers just disappears when I sing, and it's like it allows me to become someone else just like in acting.

Lauren and my other good friend in the class John also did really well with their speeches. Lauren, despite being nervous, was amazing in her speech from The Holiday, and she sounded exactly like Kate Winslett which was who's character she was speaking as. While John did a speech that was the opposite of his past speeches, it was a more serious monologue, but it still was fantastic.

After this I headed to Lauren's for a bit till I started feeling sick because my headache and sinus infection just started getting worse. I headed home and took a Tylenol, and now I'm home.

That's all for tonight!
Sean

Ruthless

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So I got up at 1PM and had my usual shower. I then packed up the stuff I'd need for the night as I had to head to my friend's place as tonight was going to be a long night. I headed down to London at 2PM.

I lounged around until about 6:30 when I then headed to Kings for Fashion Show practice, and I think I have figured out how to walk the best I can walk now.

I then headed over to the UCC for play practice for the Theatre Western festival of plays that I made it into for a read-through of the play I'm in, Ruthless, where I play Johnny, Ruth's dead best friend.

After the read-through I then had to cab it back to Kings as I was late for practice for Looking Glass Land. It went really well and we ended on time instead of late like last week.

I then came home and now am watching Talledega Nights.

Autism-wise, only thing that happened was again I couldn't let go a topic I was discussing with my best friend Lauren. It's a relatively important topic however due to personal reasons I can't list the actual topic on here.

Night all!
Sean

No Surprise

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So I woke up at 1PM after having a relaxing sleep, and had my shower. I wasn't working until 3PM so I got to take my time. I then headed back downstairs and watched some Will & Grace and laughed my butt off. After this I got ready to head out to pick up Chris.

I picked Chris up at 3 and took him to Wendy's again, and then to Pinafore, and finally back to my house to finish up Harry Potter. I think I may have to hide it for next week because without trying to sound rude, I just can only see that movie so many weeks in a row before going nuts.

After taking Chris home I came home for dinner, my fave once again (chicken and mashed potatoes) and then watched some of my Brothers & Sisters Season 2 DVD.

At 8PM I decided to go get FAME because I love the movie and it recently came out. When I got to Rogers they were out of the movie to rent so I decided to just buy it. I then came home and watched said film.

Autistic-wise, I suppose the thing that happened was I kept talking to my parents about the scams online and what to watch out for, but I didn't want to let the topic go until my mother told me that was enough. So I stopped and went downstairs.

Here we are, so night all!
Sean

Fly Me To The Moon

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So I woke up briefly at 11AM which was annoying as I hadn't gotten much sleep yet. I then went back to sleep for a while. To be clear I was at my friend's place last night as I had King's Players last night. I finally got up at 1PM so that my Dad could come pick me up and take me home as I worked tonight.

I got home at 3PM and got ready for work. I then headed out at 4PM to take Chris out to Wendy's. I then took him to Pinafore Park and headed back to my house where we watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince some more.

After I took Chris home, I sang my song for my parents that I want to do for my monologue though my mother suggested a different song as the one I wanted to sing was slightly out of tune whereas the other song I can sing better.

I then played and finished off my game, Bayonetta. Now I'm here about to go to bed.

Night all!
Sean

Stand By Me

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Sorry I'm late in the post, but there wasn't much for me to post. To start with I got up at 1PM as I had a massage appointment at 2:40. I headed to the appointment and it wound up an excellent one, I felt so relaxed after it and I haven't had any more pain yet.

After the massage I had an appointment with Health Services to check this cough I'd had for ages. Turns out it was either just allergies or remnants of a cold. I believe it was the latter for me.

After that I headed back briefly to my house to drop off my prescription then headed to Masonville to do some grocery shopping and shopping for a serving tray as I got sick of always putting plates on my bed. It got crumbs everywhere which was just horrible.

Following Masonville I came home, watched the Top Model finale where the girl I wanted to win, won. Then I watched Glee where Rachel was crushing on Mr. Schuster and it was just funny to watch him try to tell her no.

I then went to bed.
That's all for now everyone!
Sean

The Law is Reason Free From Passion

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So I got up at 1PM today and headed to my Personality Theory exam. I went for an hour in which we talked about positive Psychology which I have to say was a positive way at looking at the world :P. At 2:30PM I headed to my Psych of Work Professor so I could ask some more questions about the exam. Then at 3:30 I headed to my exam and wrote it. I really think I did well, but I guess I'll find out at the beginning next year. I'm praying I got like 70 or higher but I'm sure I'll find out next week.

After this I headed home for a brief moment and got a granola bar and then headed to King's for the rehearsal for the King's Players Variety show. It turns out though I wasn't really needed as my piece was already rehearsed. So I then headed back home and just watched some television and started studying for my Personality Exam. Luckily only five lectures this time instead of eight.

At 10:30PM I headed over to my friend Lauren's for a movie night. I sat and talked with Ashley and Lauren until pizza was ready and we then headed downstairs to watch The Ugly Truth, which has given me the best topic for my speech Monday.

At about 11:15PM, two of our friends came over and we chatted till like....12:50PM. Eventually once they left after talking about dreams, and the variety show and other stuff, we headed back downstairs to finish the movie.

After the movie I came home and just packed up some of my things to head back tomorrow.

That's all for tonight everyone!
Sean

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Nothing's Wrong I'm Torn

Hey everyone!

So today I woke up around 1PM and decided that I needed to go see an academic counselor as I wanted to find out more about what I might need for the Master's program. I found out some interesting news that I'm not even sure whether or not I'll be able to get into an honours degree because unless I find out a perfect way of doing well in multiple choice, I doubt I'll ever get the marks I need to get into it though I'm still going to try, I'm just having a bit of doubting in me right now.

After the meeting I made an appointment for tomorrow at 11:30AM with a career counselor who can help me find out more about Masters programs as the Academic Counselor couldn't really help me with that particular aspect, though I do of course appreciate her help and she gave me the name of the person I need to talk with.

Following this I headed to the library around 3PM and studied with my friend Lauren for the test on Thursday. I'm still nervous as hell about it so I hope I do well in it.

Then around 5:30 we headed back to Lauren's where we just chatted and I scarfed down a couple granola bars, which is good because they're actually healthy instead of unhealthy.

We then headed to class around 6:30PM and we listened to different speeches, though why two people had to bring up Swine Flue I don't understand. One was really enough frankly, but I suppose you don't ever know what the other person is doing.

Around 7:45PM though we headed to the main building on King's for Western Idol. The amount of people who decided to sing was fantastic. I sang 'Don't Stop Believing' hoping it's popularity might get me to the next round but once again didn't. But doesn't mean I'll give up, and at least unlike last year where I was pretty upset, this time I just had a total blast singing the song (minus the first line that I kinda messed up as I got confused about the proper pitch as my brain gets a bit confused if I practiced the song in a different range). I may not have made it, but at least I had fun.

I then headed home, watched Heroes, and here I am studying once more.
Night all!
Sean