Day went quite well, I headed to London because I was hanging out with Lauren today. We had dinner at Jack Astor's which is always fun, and fattening :P. Then we went and saw Letters to Juliet, which was a beautiful movie. While yes, it was the usual romantic comedy, at the same time there were some very touching moments. Amanda Seyfried did a wonderful job as Sophie, yes she had the same name as her Mamma Mia character, whom wrote to a woman Claire who had written a letter to Juliet fifty years prior to the present time. I would go more into it like I have before but I don't want to spoil it for any of you romance-goers.
I'll post some more later, but autism-wise all that happened was that I kept worrying I was saying the wrong things to Lauren but of course I wasn't. Just my being paranoid :p
So my day was another dull one. I had to work with Chris and already going to say that it was more of Chris's constant asking when we were leaving. But I'd say the only other thing that happened autistic wise was I was doing a minor amount of grocery shopping, just picking up some minor items, and I talked to the cashier mentioning that at a different variety store a jumbo sized container was cheaper than the small container. I think I should of just figured, why did I need to bring this up, but I guess it was one of those lovely occasions where you can't help but bring up something completely random and make an awkward situation. It might not be autism, but none the less, it was AWKWARD. :P
Another thing I need to say is regarding how some things I really hate about in the world. For example, I tried getting a job at this one store that has a specific area of focus, video games, and being that I'm a video game fanatic, you'd figure it'd be easy for me to get a job there. Instead I walk in to find this one girl from my high school is now working there, someone who last I checked has never been interested in video games. Plus when I walked in, she looked at me as though I was dirt on the bottom of her shoe and she treated me the same way too. It irritated me so much I can't even get it off my mind because it is so ridiculous.
Now, the title of my blog, the future. Frankly I've been doing some soul searching and I've come to realize that I really have no idea what the heck I want to do with my life. Well...I do, I want to be an actor more than anything. Even though it's been a while since I did dance, but I still know how to dance, I can sing (I didn't do poorly on my vocal classes, I actually did smashing, so I must have some voice), and I know I can act because I don't take it to the point of perfection. However, as you also know, I'm in a Psychology program as a back up. But the fact is, I'm not happy. I only am ever happy when I'm acting, and while some directors may not always make it amazing, I still love it. I've been acting for years, and I just know that it's what is for me, but sadly it's also very difficult to get into...especially in Hollywood where I really want to go, to help entertain millions. To me it's about bringing joy to people who see movies, and it's what I'd love to get into... This is just me thinking about it and expressing my love of it...
Anyway that's all tonight, Thanks for reading my friends, Sean
My day was a relatively normal. I had work with Chris as usual, in which we watched Brother Bear. I'd say the only thing that really happened was that I had to work on keeping myself once again from snapping at Chris. Odd thing that did happen was for some reason, Chris slapped himself in the face out of the blue. Not hard, but he still slapped himself which just confused me as to why he'd slap himself.
The thing I have to talk about today is Bullying, because recently a 13-year old from my city died because of bullying. Bullying is one of the worst things going on these days, but frankly it's one of the worst things that has been happening for centuries. Bullying can be found throughout every time period, from Napoleon Bonaparte, to the bullies who caused this boy's life to end. While I cannot really speculate what happened or how this boy's life ended because that would just be rude and irresponsible and probably even hurtful to the family, the fact is he was bullied and the school board won't even admit it despite apparent proof being everywhere.
Bullying is constantly happening, everyone bullies, or at least most do. Whether it's among races, sexual orientations, religions, it doesn't matter, bullying happens and we seriously need to figure out a way to stop this. But even if we're saying something bad about someone and they don't hear it, that's still bullying. It's just so beyond ridiculous that we can't just be nice to one another but the fact is, because we're all unique, people have to attack those who are different from them because it makes them feel powerful and in control.
So what happened to me today? Absolutely NOTHING. I had a hair cut and that was basically it. I didn't have tutoring, and I didn't have work so as you can guess it was a pretty dull day. My only autistic thing that happened was me being unable to sleep last night due to the being alone thing. Obviously I'll be okay tonight since I'm not alone now that my parents are home again, but still it really annoys me. (Please Note: I was okay for sleeping for much of the past couple nights, but last night I just was not so hot. Don't know why, just wasn't).
ANYWHO, tonight on Glee it was such a fantastic episode. The Glee-clubbers had to choose a song that best represented them, who they felt they were and who their voice was. Rachel Berry was unfortunately losing her voice and it culminated when she tried singing her piece for the assignment, Miley Cyrus' The Climb. However, instead of a beautiful piece from Lea Michele as always, it was extremely off key, parts were barely singing, it was clear though that Lea can really act well at pretending to sing poorly, otherwise it would not have sounded as "not perfect" as it sounded. Finn Hudson (Cory Monteith) performed a stunning rendition of "Jessie's Song" by Rick Springfield, due to his continuing affection for Rachel and wanting for her to pick him over Jessie (Jonathan Groff).
The other side of this episode was a focus around Kurt Hummel (Chris Colfer) feeling rejected by his father who is taking Finn to sporting events and not inviting him. Feeling dejected, his tries to change his flamboyant self, into a more butch version going so far as to dress in flannel and overalls like his father, sings "Pink Houses" by John Mellencamp for his Glee assignment, and even tries to pretend dating Brittany (Heather Morris) and goes so far as to make out with her. It isn't until his father tells him about another sporting event he's taking Finn to, that Kurt finally tells him off and then goes off to the stage and sings "Rose's Turn" replacing Rose with his own name, from Gypsy: A Musical Fable, that his father walks in telling him that it was an amazing performance and he could get into that sort of genre (show tunes). Kurt and his father reconcile, with his father telling him he still loves him, and the two leave.
Rachel eventually regains her voice and ends off the show singing "One" by U2 at first with a friend of Finn's, Sean, who had been paralyzed in a football game but at the same time realized even though he could no longer do football, he still had other talents. It was through this that Rachel was able to regain her confidence and realize even if she lost her voice, it wasn't the only thing that defined her. The scene then shifted over to the Glee Club performing the song, and then ending the show by returning to the two singing.
There was also a brief storyline about Puck (Mark Salling) trying to regain his bully reputation at the school, and he tries to win over Mercedes who has become popular by becoming a cheerleader. He sings to her "The Lady is a Tramp" by Sammy Davis Jr. and is able to win her over. This however results in a duet between Mercedes and Puck's former girlfriend Santana (Naya Rivera) sing "The Boy Is Mine" by Brandy and Monica. Upon realizing that Puck had been using her popularity to become a bully again, Mercedes resigns from the Cheerios and breaks up with Puck.
Personally I loved the episode because it helped communicate the message of having confidence in yourself and just being who you are and not letting one thing define you.
Anyway, I hope you liked my review of the episode. I hope the writing wasn't too horrible. Sean
So I apologize in advance because I have basically nothing to talk about today. I had a quiet day of playing video games, working with Chris, and tutoring. The autism thing that happened today is the same thing that's been happening the past three days with Chris. Simply a slight irritation that he had to keep asking me about when we were leaving.
So quick update on the day. I worked as always with Chris. No tutoring today as we got all of it finished on Friday. I think autism-wise the only thing that really happened was the whole Chris thing I explained yesterday. Make sure to read yesterday's post as I'm not going to explain it again.
As for what I want to talk about well it's pretty simple. It's this whole fact that so many of us (the population) dating and everything, it's been making me think, why do we date? Is it a case of wanting to be needed? Or is it love? I've been thinking a lot and I don't know, I've been finding that we all have this need to feel needed. Why is it that so many of us feel we need someone not necessarily to be happy, but just for the whole companionship and such. I may know these days I don't need a relationship to be happy, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't like one just for the benefits of a relationship. Someone to love, someone who loves you, someone to hang with, someone to treat, someone who treats you, and someone who knows you so completely. Why is this? Why do we need this sort of thing?
I think the reasoning behind this is sort of what my friend said to me. "You know how tough it is to raise your hand in class if you're the only one who doesn't "get" something, or if you have an opposing viewpoint? But as long as you have that one other person who feels the same way, it makes it SO much easier? It's the same sort of idea. We're getting confirmation that we're on the right track. And that makes things easier."
I suppose he's right, but for now all I can pose is a question for you. Why do you think we always have to be in a relationship? Why can't we just be single and be so content that we never worry? Like George Clooney for instance? He's a bachelor and seems just completely content with it. So tell me, what do you think?
Boring day today, comprised of work, and watching a lot of tv. :P
Now as for autism, well I think the only thing that happened was I got rather irritated (by this I mean not yelling, but just getting a bit more stern in my words) at Chris again because he kept asking what time we were leaving, for every minute or second that passed. I'd almost think that he has Alzheimer's now too because he's forgetting what I said, only five seconds after I say it. But it's clear that I'm just not telling him a specific way that allows him to understand. But I mean I tell him what time we're leaving. I tell him how many minutes till we leave. I tell him I'll tell him WHEN it's time to go. But no matter what I tell him, or how I tell him, he completely forgets that I just told him a minute ago and asks me again.
I suppose I understand him though, it really is just a case of impatience, but more importantly with Chris, it's a case that only certain things keep him focused. As a result, when he gets bored of what we're doing, he wants to go home, so he will constantly ask when we're leaving. It's simple as that. So as a result I keep telling him because I can't take him home yet.
I'm a 22 year old student at King's College at the University of Western Ontario. I've been a member of students councils for the past 8 years of my life, including Communications Coordinator and Website Commissioner. I'm in Psychology at Western, and have a big passion for acting. I'd love to get into movies if I could, but for now, I'm just living life and loving my friends and the productions I'm in at school :).
