Ahh the Future

Hey Everyone!

So my day was another dull one. I had to work with Chris and already going to say that it was more of Chris's constant asking when we were leaving. But I'd say the only other thing that happened autistic wise was I was doing a minor amount of grocery shopping, just picking up some minor items, and I talked to the cashier mentioning that at a different variety store a jumbo sized container was cheaper than the small container. I think I should of just figured, why did I need to bring this up, but I guess it was one of those lovely occasions where you can't help but bring up something completely random and make an awkward situation. It might not be autism, but none the less, it was AWKWARD. :P

Another thing I need to say is regarding how some things I really hate about in the world. For example, I tried getting a job at this one store that has a specific area of focus, video games, and being that I'm a video game fanatic, you'd figure it'd be easy for me to get a job there. Instead I walk in to find this one girl from my high school is now working there, someone who last I checked has never been interested in video games. Plus when I walked in, she looked at me as though I was dirt on the bottom of her shoe and she treated me the same way too. It irritated me so much I can't even get it off my mind because it is so ridiculous.

Now, the title of my blog, the future. Frankly I've been doing some soul searching and I've come to realize that I really have no idea what the heck I want to do with my life. Well...I do, I want to be an actor more than anything. Even though it's been a while since I did dance, but I still know how to dance, I can sing (I didn't do poorly on my vocal classes, I actually did smashing, so I must have some voice), and I know I can act because I don't take it to the point of perfection. However, as you also know, I'm in a Psychology program as a back up. But the fact is, I'm not happy. I only am ever happy when I'm acting, and while some directors may not always make it amazing, I still love it. I've been acting for years, and I just know that it's what is for me, but sadly it's also very difficult to get into...especially in Hollywood where I really want to go, to help entertain millions. To me it's about bringing joy to people who see movies, and it's what I'd love to get into... This is just me thinking about it and expressing my love of it...

Anyway that's all tonight,
Thanks for reading my friends,
Sean

Without You

Hey Everyone,

So today I've been doing some thinking and for today's post, rather than doing something about my day, I just want to post a beautiful song that I really inspires oneself to dream basically.

"I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream."

And here's the video featuring pictures from Bride Wars. The singer's name is Priscilla Ahn. Sorry for the video being slightly cut on the side, it's just due to Blogspot:



Edit: Okay okay, I changed my mind. Basically today, I had a photo shoot with my old friend Lisa, and I had a blast with it. Following of course was me getting my blood work done that I had put off for so long just because I continually forgot to go but oh well, it's done now. After that was work with Chris as always, where we just finished off Bewitched and then watched New Moon. After this was basically a really dull evening of video games, tutoring and watching some tv.

The only autistic thing I can think of that happened was me finding it difficult to sleep once more because I had to be home alone for the night as my parents went away for the night. They're back soon so I'll be fine sooner or later, just tonight was difficult.

Anyway that's all tonight!
Sean

We're Closed!

Hey Everyone!

So wonderful day today in my opinion. I woke up and was able to finish the slideshow to go with my final speech :). I got to London around 3:30 and headed over to the music building as I was to have rehearsal with Emily (my accompanist) for my final solo. However, when I got there I found out that the rehearsal was canceled as she had an engagement to play for, which means my practice with her will be tomorrow, thirty minutes before class. You can probably guess, I'm a little frustrated by this.

I walked back to the variety store to get milk and some food for dinners this week, and then headed back home. I transferred the files onto my zip drive for class and headed to said class.

Speech went amazingly. My speech on how media interprets love and how we rely on it, was according to my friends my best speech in the entire year which I am SO thrilled to hear. Here's hoping I do really well on it!

Finally myself, John, Marlene and our Professor all headed to Christina's for dinner to celebrate (and mourn :P) the last class of the year. Unfortunately it was closed for Easter, so then we headed to the Wave, the partially classy restaurant in the University Community Center, but IT was closed too! So finally we just headed to the Spoke pub downstairs (the Wave is on the second floor) and had dinner there. We had a great time talking about where we see our futures, King's Players direction, and just a multitude of topics. It was great just sitting down and chatting with our Professor for a long time.

Then John just took me home and here I am.

Autistic-wise I think only time it "sprung up" was me just doing my whole aggravation when I couldn't finish my sentence because I was being interrupted.

That's all folks!
Sean